Girl Mom….. Times Two

 Hello my messy moms, drained dads, grumpy grandparents.. Or absolutely no one… Whomever may actually read this. 

There is no rhyme or reason for this blog. Or maybe it will be a healthy outlet. Or just a place to vent and hopefully it doesn’t end up in the wrong hands. Who knows… 

I recently dipped my toes in the trenches of newborn ness again. Had another beautiful baby girl. My oldest is roughly 2.5 years old, I am definitely not a “my kid is 23 months old” kind of mom. I don’t have the patience to try and do that math, we just round up. Or guess. So she’s roughly 2.5 years old. Smart as a whip and just amazing. I wont go into details, because creepy people have access to the internet. 

Here is my thought though, having a newborn is easy ish. Maybe I’ve been lucky to have some chill kids- I just embrace the chaos when they get older. So the newborn trenches aren’t the newborn itself, but what comes after that. The emotions, the pain, the “what the fuck is going on with my body, because I can’t”… I had a C section with both my girls. I thought because I had been through it before, I knew what to expect. NOPE!!!!! The pain this time around, it’s brutal. Like, the scar tissue is letting itself be known, kind of pain. So I mean the pain, it’s definitely a hit to the mental health department. Then the baby blues, the bickering with my husband. Honestly, my husband is an amazing guy. My emotions right now, I feel like a toddler who has these big emotions and zero way to express them. So it turns into frustration and anger, seems like those are the only emotions I can pin point for sure. Then the crying. I am so sensitive to every little thing. It is honestly super annoying at this point. I don’t want to feel this way. I don’t think any mom wants to feel this way. 

So here I am, some random mom in Nevada with a blog, that no one will read. Trying to get through the newborn trenches, one blog at a time. Hoping it helps me get my pink back. 

Stay messy moms!